it has been a little while darling, too long since i have visited you through this special place, but i have been very ill, it has been a worrying time for all, as it looked as though i was not going to pull through, i am not out of the woods yet, in fact darling i hoped i would die so i could hold you in my arms again. i do not think it will be too long, i just need to be with you. i love you so very much, i love you still, i always will. always, and forever yours love john